♥HELLO

2009-04-16T21:05:00.001+08:00

Lols .
Pathetic . So many people spam .
And i never scold everyone from 3A . Please read first .
Lol .
Anyway , gonna delete and ban every spam .
Bye . :)

2009-04-15T23:28:00.002+08:00

Anyone else is more important .
Especially some other annoying person .
Am i right ?
Yup . Fine , okay . Got it .
Understood .
Happy now ?

GOODNIGHT .

2009-04-15T23:19:00.002+08:00

deleted the spams .
fucking waste of my fucking time .

and fucking disappointed now . not cause of the fucking spamming .
cause thats the way people like you guys behave anyway .
can't really expect much . :) .
and if you actually think we don't know who is the spammer , you're in for a big surprise .
i alr said don't test my patience .

disappointed cause of another thing .
only kimmy knows .
even she says she can feel the disappointment lah .
like wtf man .
don't have anything else to say to you .
i seriously have no idea whats with you these days .
my god .
screw life man .

2009-04-15T21:36:00.003+08:00

To the spammers :

If you think i'm stupid enough to believe that KIMMY is the one spamming, then you ought to check your brain .

& , lai la . simi lan 1vs1 . you bring your father, mother , sister , brother , uncle all come down BNSS you see i scared boh .
Humji boji . Mother never give you name ah ? Or mother die giving birth to you ? Thats why you're so bitter and come here spam .
Go her coffin and kpkb okay ? Mai kp at my tag board .
Plus , for fuck sake . Spelling also fail ah ? Or pajiao then go wrong blog ?
Sarah ? I don't know any Sarah .

Buey song lai rl settle la . Don't childish here la pcb .
Recess lai face to face scold la .
Wuji lai la hor. I slowly wait you .

Breathe slow ;

2009-04-15T18:30:00.004+08:00

Boo . :) .
Sch was rather mundane .
Lols .
Learning another topic in bio alr .
Damn boring . Was just talking .
Lol .

Almost got raped by YiTing during english .
She was like , ya ya , go boy's house somemore . Later he do this to you .
Then she grab me and push me to the wall .
And pretending to do stupid stuff .
Asshole ! LOL .
Like i scared of you ! :P .

Speaking of english , i have 3 essays to complete by friday .
Plus 2 speeches .
Die . :) .
Hoho .

Had a rushed recess , then went to physics lab for Science Practical Assessment(SPA) practice .
Quite okay . Lol .
Only Damien got the accurate answer . -.- .

Had A maths test .
Quite easy .
A1 please . A1 please . D: .
Haven't gotten any A1s this term .
Wtf .
Last term all A1 . Kns .
Sucky term .

Chem was boring . Lols .
-.- .
Had physics remedial after sch .
Unfortunately , didn't learn anything .
Was busy talking .
D: .

Maths remedial was in 2E classroom .
Retarded .
Our classroom was being used for malay oral or something .
Lols . -.- .

After remedial, Kimmy went to class awhile .
Then Eve , xinyi and i were waiting at concourse .
YiTing was also there .
Then Joel damn stupid .
Wanted to pretend to hit YiTing .
Then i pretend to defend her by going in the middle of them and pushing him .
Then Joel was like , Wah , YiTing's girlfriend come defend liao . Les sia !
Then Xinyi go say . OI ! Why you call my nuer les ?
LOL . Then Joel go say , wah she your daughter ah ? so unlucky .
Then Xinyi whack him , i also whack him .
Then he retreated away .
Owned . ;3 .

After that went pasar malam with Eve , Kimmy and Xinyi .
Bought ramly burger . Really very nice .
:) .
Then went parkway to buy some stuff from the korean food store .
Lol .
Then went home .
:) .

Done with my day .
Boring day .
-Yawn-
There is geog test tmr .
Fuck man .
Needa go study now .
-.- .
Sigh.

2009-04-14T22:24:00.003+08:00

Ulrika ,
You jealous that i can get into triple science , while you cant ?
I know bad words so what ?
Need you huan lo siboh ?
And please la , we actually want to get somewhere in life , unlike you .
And i know you very jealous , don't need come and advertise on my blog how pretty i am. :)

This shows that there REALLY are dogs that come to my blog and search for things to complain about .
Get a life please .
I know i'm important , but i ain't your whole life . :) .

Btw , stop screwing your boyf in public .
Some of us still want to be able to eat during recess . :)

How pathetic man . blogspot.com ?
Delete this blog la .
Faster faster delete . :) .

2009-04-14T21:02:00.002+08:00

sian.
no mood .
no mood .
NO MOOD LA .
-.- .
****ed up .

Believe me , its taking everything to just breathe .

Get with you , tonight .

2009-04-14T18:15:00.003+08:00

Yo . ;3
Just back from clb .
Clb was seriously boring today .
Lols .
The funny people didn't come .
Blahs .
Had 4 new boys from chai chee sec or something .
Idk . Lols . They come in straight away tio scolding from the teacher in charge of clb in st pats .
Wtf lol .

Sch was okay .
In the morning watched the choir perform .
Probably wun get COP again this year .
Unlike some other cca . -cough-
:)

Bio was funny , as usual .
Was shouting crap luh .
Learning about how to prevent STDs and stuff .
And Kimmy was being an asshole .
LOL .

During geog Mrs Fong told us about some assholes from 3A .
WTF la.
Seriously , you all don't want to study can just fuck off la pls .
Skip remedial , skip skip skip .
Damn big ah ? Fuck sia .
Make Mrs Fong want retire .
She's like the only good geog teacher in the sch la .
You want fail O lvls then quit sch la .
Don't need piss teachers off right .
You know how hard our class had to plead Mrs Fong to stay anot ?
Knnccb . Fucking failures in life lah.
Piss us all off man .
You guys don't even deserve her as your teacher la .
Should let you all rot and die or something .
Kns .
Enough about that . -.- .

Recess was damn funny . Laughed like mad . Thanks to Elonah .
LMAO .
MT also .
She finally came.
And was SUPER retarded , i swear .
Talking about people jumping around in cinemas .
LOL .
Then giving stupid and random couple names .
Until become BEAR .
WTF LOL . BEAR .
From pig to zhu to baby to bee to dono what then bear .
We laughed like fuck la .
The 3 of us laugh for like , 1 hour straight until the teacher also give up on us .
LOL .
I swear , i haven't laughed so much for so long .
This week rocks man .
Hahas .

Then found out something from yiting during cme period .
Was fucking freaked out .
-.- .
Kimmy asked me if i was scared or disappointed .
Lols . I think neither .
-.- .

Then assembly period , just sit there talking shit .
And laughing like mad.
Haha.
I got slapped like , 4 - 5 times la wtf .
Hello ? I'm like just looking at the FAN . :) .
Nothing else . :D .
And then i started obsessing about STDs .
Lols . And Kimmy went on and on about herpes .
Asshole .

During geog found out ANOTHER thing .
About same thing , but different person .
WTF .
Can faint la . -.- .
My god .

After sch went to eat snow ice .
Then went clb late , as usual .
Was super sleepy during the lesson .
Boring boring boring .
Went up late for lesson after the break .
Cause me and Kimmy were talking and laughing .
Cause of the fucking cinema jumping and dancing .
LOL . I swear , i don't know whats wrong with Kimmy !
LOL . Moron . ;3 .
Bused home with Kimmy . She was STILL obsessing about the jumping .
Stop imagining that shit la .
LOL .

&& last night xinyi almost made me faint cause of one message .
I read it like 5 times laughing non-stop till my dad started staring at me with an incredulous expression . LOL .
He was like , who the hell are you smsing?!

Now going to bath and eat . ;3 .
Byeee .

Share with me the blankets that you're wrapped in , cause its cold outside .

2009-04-13T21:22:00.003+08:00

Yo . Not much time to update today .
Have to do work .
I'm such a good student . :) .
LOL .

Anyway , today had NAPHA test .
Bullshit okay .
But at least can get gold this year .
Lol . Idk what happened to my stomach muscle luh .
I strained it too much ytd or something .
Then couldn't do anything without my stomach hurting like crap .
Even sneezing hurts , i swear .
Then i got through everything but standing broad jump .
Cause when jump need stretch stomach muscles like fuck .
And Mr Yeo don't let me take the test another day .
So i jumped . And it was DAMN PAIN .
I was like , " FUCK LAH " , infront of Mr Yeo .
Wonderful right ? :)
Say that infront of discipline master .
But so what ? I can totally sue him for injuring me or something . -.- .
And my stomach hurts even more now .
Fuck la . Idk what happen . Seriously .
-dies-
Lols .

MT was retarded . Kimmy and i sat infront and did A maths while talking like mad . ;3 .
LOL . We haven't talked since like friday . -.- .
And we can't say everything through smses . Too lazy . :P .
Then behind us was Jun Yong .
He's damn retarded, i swear .
He went on and on about mothers dying . Wtf .
My stomach hurt like crap from laughing .
Asshole lah . LOL .
Don't know whats wrong with him !

The rest of the day was kinda mundane .
Mdm Rogayah was pissed with us .
Ponned english class ma . :/ .
Gah .
While walking to english , Evelyn and i were quizzing each other on .. stuff .
Then neither of us wanted to say . And she starting singing Dirty Little Secrets .
LOL . Wtf . Hello , she's the one with dirty little secrets , not me .
I'm so innocent . ;3 .
LOL .
Wahaha .

After sch went tech view eat . Lol .
Then while walking back to sch , starting talking alot of craps .
Thanks to Evelyn luh !
She bought some stupid book full of quotes and started reading sick ones out loud . -.- .
And then Kimmy was going on about premarital sex . And keep annoying me .
Lols . She went on about pre-stead sex . LOL .
Freak . There's no such thing la asshole .
Then outside our classroom while waiting for english remedial to be over ( we never pon hor . We don't need go for english remedial de . -.- Must write . If not some dogs read my blog then anyhow paotou . -'- ) , Kimmy , Evelyn and i started bullshiting again . Lols . Had no idea Desmond was such a common name that appears in our lives so many times . ( all thanks to EVELYN , actually . ;3 )

Lols . Chemistry remedial is fun now a days .
Just sit in library and do work .
Without Mdm Haliza . LOL .
14 of us get to do that . :D .
Fun fun . ;3 .
Victoria School's chem prelim paper was a torture , though .
Wtf man . Only Aaron had enough general knowledge to know the answer .

After chem remedial went to meet Jeremy to get my gossip girl . ;3 .
Then walked around void decks for awhile .
Till Jeremy had to go home to pass his grandfather house key .
Lols . Followed him to pass the key . Then decided to just go into his house .
Lazy to walk . His brother's 7 friends had alr left the house .
Thank god . -.- Didn't really want to see 7 sec1 boys running around .
Used comp and blablabla .
Then went home at around 7:30 .

While walking with Jer to my house , saw someone from BNSS i think .
Not sure who . But i think i know who .
Heh .
Whatever .

Okay , i really have to start studying for my geog test .
Bye ! :)

2009-04-12T18:30:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah , and Happy Easter ! :) .

2009-04-12T17:51:00.001+08:00

Oh , Kimmy F> shuai guys .
Tag her at her blog if interested .
LOL .
:D

So baby , never let go .

2009-04-12T17:01:00.004+08:00

Hello . :) .
Here to update about ytd .

Met Rosi , Jeslyn and Na Ryung at tanah merah at 5 .
Was almost late . Had to cab there from my house .
Which is retarded . Cause tanah merah is damn near to my house . -.- .
Wasted $4 . :/ .
Took mrt to the expo to attend the service at City Harvest .
It was super crowded .
Lol .
Quite good bah .
One part of the play was scary . -.- .
Stupid .
The service ended at about 7:30 ?

After the service went to find Jeremy .
He was with his 2 friends , Cyrus and Zac . Lol .
Then after awhile went off to meet Rosi they all .
Then met Jer , Cyrus and Zac at the mrt platform while waiting for Rosi .
They decided to follow me , Rosi and the rest ( forgot who -.- ) to Changi Airport .
Then Rosi and the rest wanted to go eat . And i decided to follow the 3 boys to safra . :D .
Took mrt to tampines then bus .
The bus ride was damn hilarious .
They were super funny ( and xia suay ) .
LOL .
Lazy to say what happened here .

Met Brandon and YinJie at safra . Lols .
-.- .
Jer and i then watched Zac and Cyrus play pool while we talked .
His friends ( Zac and Cyrus ) are nice people . Wasn't as awkward as i thought it would be .
Haha .

At 10 , Jer and i left .
Took bus to tampines interchange .
Then took bus to tanah merah .
Didn't feel like taking mrt . Lol . :P
Nice long bus ride .
Then met my dad and he sent Jer home .
Reached home at about 11 .

And that concludes the day .
Well , not quite . But thats all i'm saying . -.- .
:D .

Anyway . It was a good day .
:) .
Best day this year .
:) .
LOL .

Today , i was super happy (according to evelyn) .
She says she hasn't seen me this happy for a long time .
Lols .
Wonder why . Heh .

Wore my dress to church then my dad's friends kept commenting .
Lol . They kept saying it has been a damn long time since they saw me wear a dress .
And that i looked nice blahablahablah . Lol . Embarrassing .
-.- .
Its just clothes for goodness sake . O:
Lols .

Bought 2 shoes just now .
White flats and black heels .
:)
I have no idea why Kimmy is so excited that i'm wearing dresses now.
-.- .

Even through the hard times .
We made it through just fine .
When it hurt we put in the work to show that I'm yours , and that you're mine .
That's how we got this far , let's never be apart .

2009-04-11T23:44:00.001+08:00

Today is a wonderful day .
:) .
I'm tired . Post more tmr .
Nights ! :D

You and me all alone , boy .

2009-04-11T15:22:00.002+08:00

Perfection .

Uniqlo ( See how fucking long the line is ? -.- . )

Pushing me away ;

2009-04-11T14:23:00.002+08:00

Yo . Lols .
Went to Tampines One , the new mall at tampines , with Kimmy, Eve and Xinyi .
Very nice leh . Uniqlo was like super crowded .
Had to queue up outside the shop before it was even opened . -.- .
The clothes are damn nice .
I waaaaaaaaaaaaaant. D: .
Damn it damn it .
Lols .

Then went topshop and tried on dresses .
Walao . Damn nice lor the dresses .
-.- .
Freak . I want !
LOL .
Then went TM .
Kimmy bought her tragus earring thingy ..
And Xinyi bought her necklace from 77 street .

Then we went to eat lunch .
Kimmy was trying to put on the tragus ring .
Then keep bleeding and it couldn't go in . -.-
Retarded . Then she decided to put the stud back .
LOL . Moron sia !
Kimmy and Evelyn went off soon after that .
Xinyi and i went back to Tampines One to walk around and try dresses again .
Found so many nice dresses . Imma go back with my mom . $_$ .
Whoo . :D
Lmao .

Just now Xinyi and i saw one couple .
Walking around while kissing (-.-?) , then they go into the stairs .
LOL .
Wtf . Then me and Xinyi were staring after them laughing .
Wonder what they were doing inside . ;3 .
Me and Xinyi wanted to open the door of the stairs to disturb them .
LOL . But we didn't .
Cause we don't wanna see what they were doing .
Spoil my eyes ! xD .

Wahaha .
Then went home . :) .
Later going City Harvest with Rosi , Yiting and dono who .
For some Easter Day thing . Lmao .
Then maybe going out with Jeremy .
Lol .
Okay , blog later .
:) .

ANNOUNCEMENT :

2009-04-10T22:50:00.002+08:00

Mikey F> Buang, fat , despo girlfriend . :D
Add him in Msn
mingkang_94@hotmail.com
Faster add hor !
He will accept de ! :)

You know i love you better than she ever did ;

2009-04-10T20:19:00.003+08:00

David Archuleta ! x3 !
That poster was in Iluma .

Hold on to me and remember , never let go .

2009-04-10T20:09:00.001+08:00

Oh , and .
HAPPY GOOD FRIDAY !
:D !

A fire without its flame ;

2009-04-10T19:53:00.002+08:00

Yo . :D .
Today is a good day !
Haha ! :D !

Deleted the 2 posts from this morning .
:) . I'm not emo . :) .
Wahaha .

Today woke up really late .
Hahas .
Caught up with my sleep . :) .
Went taka with family .

Then decided to go Iluma , the new mall at Bugis .
My bro didn't want to go so my dad dropped my mom and i there . :D .
There's a really good chocolate cake in Iluma . ;X
Shopped like mad .
Haha .
Spent more than $400 ?
Bought a shiny black skinnies , a black bangles , a white, grey and black checkered shorts , black shirt/shorts thing (its like a one piece thing , shorts and ahirts connected. O: ) , a long white shirt , black singlet , red checkered dress and khaki coloured shirt .
LOL .
Yay ! :D .

Getting shoes either tmr or sunday .
Black flats . :D .
And black heels , i think .
Hoho . :) .

Met Kimmy there . :D
Was at the entrance of a bra shop .
Then someone tapped my shoulder . -.- .
I got a shock okay .
Talked for like , 1 min nia . D: .
Lols .
She spotted me cause i was one of the only people wearing red skinnies .
BLEH .

Then met Jeremy too .
:D .
He came to iluma with his friends .
Then i went up to the arcade to find him lol .
Hee . :D .

Thus , today is a wonderful day . :D .
Hehe . Super happy. :) .

2009-04-09T23:07:00.003+08:00

Ahh . The music video of Little Dimples is so damn sweet .
My god . Damn nice . I was smiling through the whole video .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QCIXcJNAOuw
:) .

And this song is nice .
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A8ZtFz8f5wM&feature=related .
:/ .

Boom boom ;

2009-04-09T22:23:00.003+08:00

Wednesday ;

LOL mum , whats with that face? HAHA .

Lols . Don't they have smexaye legs ?

LOL .

Allow me to introduce Kimberly Ng . :D .

Yo mummaye ! x3 .

Thursday ;

This is my darling dajie / laoda / sister / pig Kimmy acting like a complete retard trying to stop me from whacking the hell outta her . ;3

Waiting for yesterday .

2009-04-09T22:02:00.003+08:00

You know i love you better than she ever did .
This could be all you ever needed .
Hold on to me and just remember, never let go .

Baby , kiss me through the phone .

2009-04-09T21:37:00.004+08:00

I hate the pain , but i love you .

Yawn .
I see history repeating itself .
Just that this time i'm not going to be the one getting hurt .
Its going to be her .
I hope you see what you're doing .
I hope you realise that what you're doing is wrong .
I hope is gets into your thick head that what you're doing will HURT HER EVENTUALLY .
I totally feel for her now .
Not knowing what is coming .
So innocent . She doesn't know that you're going to use her as your punching bag .
Your replacement .
Someone that you'll just chuck aside once you sort out your problems .
Do you know that sometimes , your actions will have a great impact on others' lifes ?
Do you even care ?
Are you that heartless ?
Is it because you have no heart and thus , you're unable to comprehend the magnitude of the pain when someone gets their heart broken ?
Not knowing that what you're going will cause hurt is one thing , but doing it time and time again while inflicting pain and hurt onto innocent people is despicable .
After you saw what you did to me , how could you still walk away , without guilt and do it to someone else ?
Whats wrong with you ?
I never knew you were like this . I don't think you were ever like this .
What has gotten into you ?
I know an asshole has hurt you , but it doesn't give you the right to go around hurting other people .
Just think about what you're doing .
If i'm wrong , and this is really the kind of person you are , then i really have nothing to say . ( seriously lan lan bo wei gong ) .
But if not , i suggest you change your ways right now .

Lols , -.- .
Okays , enough about that , :D .
I don't really want to bother about other people's lifes and their wrong doings , but this is seriously going too far . :/ .
Anyway , about today . :D .
Today was boring .
Had A maths test .
Everyone had different answers .
Wtf .
I hope i don't fail .

After sch went to Kimmy's music class for awhile .
Then Evelyn's house .
Then mac with Kimmy and Eve .
Then tuition .
Almost lost my wallet .
Had a fucking heart attack , okay . -.- .

Tmr is a holiday .
Wheeee . :) .
Can wake up late .
Hahas .

2009-04-08T21:06:00.002+08:00

Anyway , left out some part just now .

To those 3 girls ytd , you know who you are .
And i know you read my blog .
I know you guys are among those little puppies who read my blog everyday without fail , checking to see if your name will appear .
Then kpkb .
So far i haven't insulted you 3 on my blog , but i shall , starting NOW .

Eh , please la hor . Stare simi stare .
Buey song then just say la .
Kns . Point point point .
Me , Kimmy and Evelyn go on bus also want point ah .
Very fun siboh .
Point lan la .
Still want stare . Opposite the road liao still stare .
Knn . I know you guys think we very chio , but don't need keep stare right .
My mother give birth to me also not for you dogs to stare de hor please .
At first i don't give a fuck about you guys de hor .
You all want drag yourselves in , be my guest .
I don't mind having to torment 3 more pathetic little bitches .
Kns .
From now on you guys better watch out , i tell you .
Please la hor , you all my junior .
You think i let you step over me de uh ?
Just cause i in better class than you doesn't mean i quiet quiet de hor .
You want test me ?
You want test us ?
Wuji lai . :) .

Oh , btw , assholes .
You 3 can also go and read Kimmy's blog .
CLICK HERE . :)
She has a really nice post for you to read .
Don't humji liao la hor .
Want disiao , want kp , wuji lai kpkb to our face k.
Knnccb .
-'- .

Nothing else i can say ;

2009-04-08T19:26:00.003+08:00

Yo yo .
Finally able to post . :) .

Monday ;
Sch was boring , whatever .
After sch went to parkway with Kimmy to meet my mum .
Cut my fringe . Lol .
Back to my old hair style . :) .
Then went to eat snow ice with Kimmy while my mum cut hair or whatever .
Then we went to find my mum again .
Bought a new phone .
Lol . N5800 . :).
Finally i have a touch screen phone . Lol . :D .
Went home , played with my phone . Blahs .
Forgot Nokia functions alr .
At least i'm used to the Nokia keyboard positions for smsing, finally . :) .

Tuesday ;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINYI MUMMY !
May all your birthday wishes come true . :D .
You know you love me !
& hope you liked the book and necklace . :) .
Loves , x3 .

Nothing much happened in sch . Lols .
Mdm wong didn't come .
Listened to music during her lesson .
Kimmy sent me a JJ Lin song - Little Dimples .
Was listening to it for a very long time .
Till Kimmy regretted sending it to me . Lmao .
The rest of the day was dull .
Till assembly .
Had performances for Modern and Chinese dance .
Modern dance was damn nice , as usual . :) .
Chinese dance was sibei funny .
Everyone was laughing .
Especially laughing at someone .
3/4 of my class were like pointing . ;3 .
We wanted encore sia ! NOT .
LOL .

After sch went Kimmy's house .
She had to take money .
Lol .
Then waited for bus .
Something happened in the bus .
I swore to myself i wouldn't do it again .. Ah fuck .
Shall not elaborate , and shall not be told .
So don't bother asking . -.- .
Lols .
Then went to eat snow ice again .
Went for clb super late .
We went after break only .
Lols .
21st april is clb exam wtf .
Maybe not going , if we can go for adam khoo instead .
Stupid exam . Fucking waste of time . -.- .

The later part of the lesson , i was sitting with Kimmy
Then we were talk about Bobby , Bob and Bobster .
Then got one time , i can't remember what we were talking about though .
I said kinda loudly , OI dont screw him la !
Then the Bedok Green guy sitting behind us , named Edwin , was like , "WHOAWHOA. "
Lmaos . Retarded . He and his friend damn joker one sia .
Keep making the class laugh . Lmao .
Then me and Kimmy decided to be annoying .
Then we turned around and Kimmy asked , " your sch ah , bedok green hor ? got a guy name Bob ? "
Then he thought we actually knew someone named Bob .
Then he was like , " huh ? no ? "
LOL .
We damn bo liao . We keep asking him and his friend as if there really is a guy name Bob .
I bet they got annoyed . LOL .
The bus-ed home . ;3

Wednesday aka Today ;
First period was bio . Lols .
We're learning sexual reproduction now .
She was teaching us about STDs .
Then she was like , teenagers now a days always have unprotected sex as they watch it in movies and think it is romantic. Blahblahblah .
Then Rosi and I shouted someone's (shall not mention here . :) in case the person cry la , HOR? ) name .
Then Ms Lenny laughed and said , don't anyhow uh ! later she accuse you of slander .
Then i said , " she can't accuse anyth , cause its true ! "
Then Ms Lenny also laugh . :) .
Ha .

Have been listening to chinese songs lately .
I keep listening to 4 JJ Lin songs , bu shuo chu de wen rou and a few others that Jun and Kimmy sent to me .
Lols .
:/ .
Chinese songs are actually quite nice .

Anyway , i shall let my brother use my comp now . Cya . :) .

Although it has been many hours , many days .
I still want to say this to you .
I love you .

Shake it off , let it go .

2009-04-05T20:32:00.002+08:00

Screw the non-emo phase .
I just can't .
-.- .

I'm blasting I'd Come For You by Nickelback over and over again .
D: .

Just one more moment, that's all that's needed.
Like wounded soldiers in need of healing.
Time to be honest, this time I'm bleeding .
Please don't dwell on it, cause I didn't mean it .

I cant believe I said I'd lay our love on the ground .
But it doesn't matter cause I've made it up forgive me now .
Everyday I spend away my souls inside out .
Gotta be someway that I can make it up to you now, somehow.

By now you'd know that I'd come for you .
No one but you, yes I'd come for you , but only if you told me to .
And I'd fight for you .
I'd lie, it's true .
Give my life for you .
You know I'd always come for you .

I was blindfolded, but now I'm seeing .
My mind was closing, now I'm believing .
I finally know what just what it means to let someone in .
To see the side of me that no one does or ever will .
So if you're ever lost and find yourself all alone , i'd search forever just to bring you home,
Here and now, this I vow .

Siansiansian .
I'd give anything for a time machine .
ANYTHING .
Except , well , him .
:) .

2009-04-05T18:25:00.004+08:00

Hehs .
Decided to post about my main clique in class ( "piggy group " ) . ;3
Actually , there is only 3 of them .
LOLS .
Its a long story .
Beginning with Kimmy and I's annoyance for zhu(s) and pig(s) .
LOL .
And ended with giving each other really dumb nicknames .

Kimmy aka Zhu Ba Jie - LOL . You know , the pig in the SunWuKong show . HAHA . Don't ask me why she wanted this nickname . LOL . I think i'll make her change to Pig . For some reasons . -cough- . Dont ask . :D BUT ITS NOT CAUSE SHE LOOKS LIKE ONE . Its cause of some asshole . :) .

Rosiana aka Babi - LOL . She chose this herself too ! Hahas ! For those who do not know , babi means pig in malay . :) Hoho .

Evelyn aka Piggy - I don't know who chose this for her . I think its me . LOL . She doesn't mind it , though . Blehs .

I shall NOT post my nickname . Cause i didn't choose it . And it sucks . Big time . -.- .
Those that know me well should know very well what it is . ;3 .
That stupid name makes me nauseous .

Anyway , i'm changing phone tmr , i think . :) .
To the latest nokia music touch screen phone. :D .
Yay . Haha .

Perfection is so overrated .

Perfection does not exsist in an imperfect world .

2009-04-05T17:28:00.002+08:00

Now that you've moved on , how i had let you go , i'll never understand .

2009-04-05T16:53:00.003+08:00

Sometimes , when i lie in bed at night , i get so mad . I just feel like throwing everything onto the ground . Cause its only at night , when i'm not talking to anyone , that i can really think properly . And , oh , it gets me so damn fucked up . Thanks man . Thanks for fucking my life up for me . Thanks for using me . Because of you , i made the wrong decision ( well , i can't really blame you for this , cause its my fault too ) . Because of you , i had let a chance slip away . Because of you , i lost him . Thanks okay . Thanks a whole lot , you asshole . Why the hell did you have to come into my life and bullshit all over it ? If you had thought twice before you made certain decisions , everything would have been different . If you had even considered that what you were going to say would have a great impact on another person's life , maybe , i wouldn't be POSTING THIS SHIT NOW . But because of your fucking SELFISHNESS and plain STUPIDITY , i am wasting my time ranting everything in my blog when all i want to do is throw you into the sea and watch you sink all the way down just like the fucking titanic ( since you think love is so wonderful , at least you'll be next to the ship that supposedly is one of the most well-known symbol for LOVE ) , where you belong . SCREW LAH . I hope you're happy now . I hope you're happy that you've fucked up my life . You've got everything you want . Your girl , your friends . What about me ? Do you think i'm some sort of tool that you can just toss aside ? Do you even KNOW how much damage you have done ? Do you even know how much i have fucking given up ? You should know , there is nothing you can do now that will EVER make me forgive you and will EVER make up for this . NOTHING . Except , maybe , a time machine . You've gotten yourself a permanent residence in my heart , the little part in the corner , full of hatred . I have never regreted falling for someone so much in my entire life . Who knew you'd end up to be such a heartless jerk ? I can say for sure , i didn't .

And since you have a knack for being so sure who my posts are for , you should know very well this is about you . Cause , well , according to you , you're " not stupid " ( even though i STRONGLY disagree ) and its " so obvious " . Oh , and if you're going to start spamming profanities in my blog , save yourself the trouble , cause i'm just going to fucking detele them .

Fuck you , seriously .

Oh , fuck love too ! :) .

2009-04-04T15:36:00.005+08:00

ihatemyselfihatemyselfforlettingmychancewithyouslipawayyouhavenoideahowmuchiregretthatiknowitswaytoolatenowbutijustcantkeep
thisinsideanylongereverythinghasalreadychangedandiknowitsmyfaultishouldhavethoughtcarefullyaboutmydecisionlasttimebutididntbut
iwantyoutoknowthatiwillkeepholdingonthistime.

Screw .
That wasn't emo . It was just ranting .
So, sue me .
Heh .

People always say that everything happens for a reason .
Unfortunately , i can't seem to think of a reason .
Ha .
Screwscrewscrew .
I screwed my life up .
I screwed everything up .
:) .
-bangs head-

2009-04-04T14:49:00.002+08:00

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh .
Screwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww .
-.- .
Feel super fucked up now .
For no reason .
Lols .
Maybe pms .
I hate you . I hate myself .
:) .

I'd take your hand and walk through memory lane .

2009-04-04T13:32:00.002+08:00

I've decided to become less emo .
Kimmy too . :D .

I've decided to get rid of any emotion that may interfer with my O Levels .
:/ .
Don't know how long it will take for me to get rid of them though .
Hahs .

Hoho . :) .
This week , i've alr stopped listening to lots of emo songs.
I've learnt to appreciate other songs . ;3 .
I'm gonna get Kimmy to send me some techno songs .

& she still owes me that chinese song .
We heard it at a shop .
She says its a JJLin (-.-) song .
Lols .
Whatever . ;3 .

& i wonder who is the dog that got into inter-house badminton .
A lot of ppl tell me got dog get inside , but never tell me who is the dog ? -.- .

Anyways , Kimmy , Eve and i are currently obessesed over the song S.E.X. by Nickelback .
LOLS .
Kimmy and I used to be obsessed over With Me by Sum41 .
Over that phase alr .
;3 .

S is for the simple need ;

E is for the ecstasy ;

X is just to mark the spot cause thats the one you really want .

Yes , sex is always the answer . Never a question , cause the answer's yes .

( S.E.X. - Nickelback )

Pictures ;

2009-04-04T13:13:00.005+08:00

Monday ;

At the beach with Kimmy . :) .

Wednesday ;

Kimmy ZhuBaJie sister . ;3

Evelyn aka porky / piggy . LOL .

Kimmy's hair . Cool right . LOL . Evelyn helped her do it . My hair too layered . Cant do that . -.- .

Kimmy's NPCC junior . Cute sec1 . Seriously damn damn cute . Like some pri sch kid . LOL . Before buffet dinner . :3 .

Thursday ;

Yu Xiao did my hair for me in sch . Lols .

When i untied it , it looked as if i permed my hair . -.- .

Lonely mind ,

2009-04-04T11:46:00.000+08:00

Boo .
Feeling better . :) .
Haha .
No more fever and headache .
But missed physics this morning .
-faints-
I was supposed to go to complete my physics portfolio as it was the last day .
But couldn't go .
D: .
Evelyn said Mr Lau will try to help though ..
Thank god . :/

Anyway , time to blog about yesterday ?
Heh .
Sch was stupid .
I was sleeping majority of the time there anyways .
-.- .
Hehs .

Went home straight away .
By 1:40 , i was alr on the bed sleeping .
-.- .
Slept all the way till 4+ .
When my mom came home and woke me up .
Lols .
My throat hurts .
Thanks to all the vomiting .
$#@!_) .
Kns .

Last night was nice .
I mean my dream was nice .
Kimmy will call me obsessed ( about vampires ) .
~.~ .
Hoho .

Okays , i'll blog later .
Cyas .

Supposed that i miss you ;

2009-04-03T19:59:00.002+08:00

The panadol is finally kicking in .
Headache is gone .
Fever is coming down .
-sigh-
This effect will only last for 4 hours though .
Darn .

Vomiting is so damn disgusting .
I can practically feel the acid in my mouth .
-shudders-

I still feel like vomiting .
Shit .
Being sick sucks .
): .
I'm going back to bed .
I feel bedridden .
Pathetic .
Bye .

Live your life ;

2009-04-03T17:03:00.001+08:00

Just vomited .
Zz .
Feeling damn sick now .
& i've got fever too .
& headache .
& my throat hurts .
Greeeaaaaat .
-Dying-
Bye .

2009-04-02T20:45:00.001+08:00

& can one kind soul out there teach me haber process for chem ?
-faints-
My worse topic is being tested tmr .
Fark .
Nights .

& held it to her throat .

2009-04-02T20:21:00.003+08:00

Boo .
Here to blog about ytd .

In the morning , pranked teachers .
Hahas .
Rearranged the tables so that they were facing the back of the class .
Imagine the look of confusion and laughter on Mdm Wong , Mrs Fong and Ms Lenny's faces when each of them walked into the class .
Haha . :) .
Super funny .
:D .
Laughed like mad .

After recess , the plan was to change classroom with 4c .
However , some assholes refused to cooperate , thus the plan was foiled .
Spoilers .
( Act nerd nia la . As if Ms Faizah will teach with 3/4 of the whole fucking class missing right .
Plus , with 4C students inside ?
Even Aaron and Alvon cooperated lor . Sheesh . Whats wrong with some people ? )
My god .
But at least 4C got to prank Ms Faizah as she went to class early .
But 4C's POA teacher arrived late and did not see us .
Darn . D: .

Oh well . :/ .
& Kimmy almost got pranked by one of her sec5 friends .
LOLS . Noob luh kimmy . :D .

After sch , had netball inter-house trials .
For Solar Power upper secondary , only Kimmy , Sheila and i were present .
Thus , we did nothing. :D .
For 4 hours . B-o-r-i-n-g .
Slept for about 1 hour though . -.- .

Had many short dreams .
About 2 people .
1 of them was is Kimmy .
Wtf la . The first time i dreamt that she hit me .
Then i jerked , in real life .
Seriously . Wth man . Kena whacked in dream , real life also move .
2nd time , i dreamt that she tripped me .
I jerked again .
LOL . -.-
& , i shall not mention the other dreams .
Thats not for you random people to know . :P .

Went home , bath , changed .
Went out for buffet dinner with parents as it was their 27th year wedding anniversary .
:D .
Damn nice .
Went to this place called Oscars .
Their cesear salad and oysters were delicious . :3 . (ahem , xinyi . dont jealous . :D )
I love buffets . :D .

Went home , tried and failed to do my geog homework .
Was distracted . Heh .

Today was boring . -.- .
Nothing much happened .
Except that me and Kimmy were complaining the whole day ...
Retribution la .
Fuckzxcs .
Whatever man . :/ .

Now , imma go try to do my geography homework , AGAIN .
-sigh-
Cya , D: .

Time is going by, so much faster than I .
And I'm starting to regret not spending all those time with you .
Now I'm wondering why, I've kept this bottled inside .
So I'm starting to regret not telling all of this to you.
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know, you're never gonna be alone .

And now, as long as I can, I'm holding on with both hands .
Cause forever I believe that there's nothing I could need but you .
So if I haven't yet, I've gotta let you know , you're never gonna be alone .

2009-04-01T23:07:00.001+08:00

Happy April Fools Day .

I'll update tmr .
No time today .

Anyway , happy 27th year anniversary to Mom and Dad .
Cool right ? My parents got married on April Fools Day . :) .
Hahas .
Nights .

2009-03-31T22:24:00.001+08:00

Viva - La - Vida is getting seriously annoying . ~.~

Save me .

Its like there's suddenly this barrier .
I want to break it , jump over it , climb over it , destroy it , ANYTHING to get over it , to the other side . To you .
But i can't .
It takes 2 people to break it .
Unfortunately , i'm the only one willing or bothered to try .

2009-03-31T21:08:00.000+08:00

Fate is on our side , but time isn't .
Its just so frustrating .

2009-03-31T20:42:00.000+08:00

I know there's nothing really left to say .♥

2009-03-31T19:53:00.005+08:00

I feel kinda breathless now .
Its the feeling you get before you burst into tears .
But , somehow , i ain't crying .
Can't find a valid reason to anyway .
:/
I think i'm sick .

-lost-

As the sun goes down in front of me , it reminds of me of where i want to be .
With you , and you alone .
Pull me in like you were made for me , i'm losing faith in gravity .
I just need to let you know , i need you .

Set you free .

2009-03-31T19:18:00.004+08:00

Maybe you weren't too late afterall .
Just too early .

Just one more moment, that's all that's needed.
Like wounded soldiers in need of healing.
Time to be honest, this time I'm bleeding .
Please don't dwell on it, cause I didn't mean it .

I cant believe I said I'd lay our love on the ground .
But it doesn't matter cause I've made it up forgive me now .
Everyday I spend away my souls inside out .
Gotta be someway that I can make it up to you now, somehow.

By now you'd know that I'd come for you .
No one but you, yes I'd come for you , but only if you told me to .
And I'd fight for you .
I'd lie, it's true .
Give my life for you .
You know I'd always come for you .

I was blindfolded, but now I'm seeing .
My mind was closing, now I'm believing .
I finally know what just what it means to let someone in .
To see the side of me that no one does or ever will .
So if you're ever lost and find yourself all alone , i'd search forever just to bring you home,
Here and now, this I vow .

Just to get high ;

2009-03-31T18:16:00.002+08:00

Gah . :/ .

Had clb today .
They combined the classes alr . :D .
Yay . Finally same class as Kimmy.
&& , this teacher is more fun . :) .
Hoho .

Today had bio test .
I think i should be able to pass .
Lols . :/
A maths was rather boring.
So was geog .
So was MT .
Cme was okay .
Heh .

Just realised that i have been kinda avoiding some stuff .
I just don't want to admit some things to myself .
I regret everything .
This term , everything i feared most came true .
Because of one wrong decision .
Some people can just pick up where they left off .
But i'm not one of those people .
There are so many things that i regret .
& i missed one great opportunity .
Once an opportunity is gone , it doesn't come back .
Argh .
How i wish i could turn back time .
Rewind .
To febuary .
Its far too late to change anything now .

& the person that understands me the most , is the person i absolutely cannot tell this to .
Argh .
I feel like i'm going to burst . Not being able to talk to anyone 'bout this .
Help ?
-sigh-

Declaration ,

2009-03-30T21:49:00.002+08:00

Just here to advertise Kimmy's blog .
Haha .
She posted a really good post on Perfection .
I agree with her completely .
Lols .

Sigh .
If only memories can fade away from me the way you walked out of my life .
I feel somewhat resentful towards most things and people now a days .
The slightest things causes me irritation .
The smallest things causes me to flinch away from someone .
I don't understand why .
I really don't .

Memories are terrible burdens to carry around with you .
They slow you down , they keep you rooted to where you are .
They restrain you from moving on .
Moving on is vital . Moving on is necessary .
Moving on is impossible .

Why is there such a thing as love ?
Love makes hurt and pain inevitable in life .
Love isn't that powerful .
In books and movies , love is something so powerful , so almighty .
Something that is able to solve everything , every problem .
Overcome every obstacle .
However , here in reality , love just causes heartbreak and grief .
Hais .

Could you say goodbye to yesterday ?

2009-03-30T18:47:00.006+08:00

You seem like a distant island that i'm slowly losing sight of as the mist gets thicker .
You're so near , yet so far .
You seem like some distant memory that i'm trying to grasp hold of .
Just some distant object that i can't seem to figure out .

What's going on ? What happened ? Why ?
These questions seem to be stuck in my head .
Everyday , everynight , i ponder and brood till my head hurts .
I came up with all sorts of reasons and explanations .
However , it seems like i'll never be able to figure out the truth , to understand what really happened .

Someone , please , take away this growing confusion and hurt .
Take away all the memories that are holding me back , like a barricade , restraining me from letting go.
Stop me from making excuses & hoping .
Help to erase your face from my mind .
Allow me to dream of anything but you .
Free me from this mixture of love and lust .

Set me free .

I did it for you ;

2009-03-30T18:17:00.005+08:00

Hello .
Today was .. seriously dull .
Kinda . The school part .

Went to sch as usual .
Was almost late .
Lols .
Barely made it on time .

Had to run the dreaded 2.4 today .
My timing increased .
Damn .
Was exhausted by the 4th round .
By the time i finished the run , i was damn faint .
I was stumbling around till i finally sat down .

Went down for recess , again .
Had to bring a lot of food back up to the class .
As i had to buy food for Rosiana and YiTing .
:) .

MT , sat with Kimmy .
At first , we were doing our work diligently while listening to music.
But Mr Lai told us to refrain from using our phones .
Whatever .
So we started talking , as usual . :D

Physics , failed yet another test .
-Faints-
Every physics test that i have gotten back this term has been a failure .
I seriously have to work harder .
Oh well .
Too much distractions now .

This term has been a demoralizing term .
Everything has turned out badly after the holidays .
I'd rather go back to term 1 , January .
Everything was so simple , easy .
No confusion , nor hurt .
Now , school is such a dread . Home isn't much better either .
I'd rather stay out at the Esplanade or the beach with my friends .
Being with my friends numbs the pain .
Its like i can actually be cheerful with them .
Not ecstatic or elated(thats for Kimmy) , but cheerful at the very least .
I wish time could just rewind . Bring me back to when everything was so easy .
Like in kindergarten or primary 1 .
No enemies , no heartbreaks , no profound questions to keep you pondering .
Everything was so straight forward , so direct .
Everyone was so predictable , there were no surprises .
I totally detest surprises .
I hate it when people suddenly change for no rhyme or reason .
In just a blink of an eye , everything is spinning round and around .
Nothing makes any sense no matter how long you try to figure it out .
There is no one to ask , no one that is able to give you the answers you need , to relief the burden on your shoulders .

Enough about that , anyway ,
went to parkway with Kimmy after school to eat snow ice .
Sat there and talked and laughed .
We laughed almost everything .
How i wish every moment could be as care-free as that .

At about 4 , walked to ecp .
Kimmy went mac to buy a burger before that .
She met Jonathan .
So coincidental .
Ha .
Slacked and talked a lot at the beach .

There was high tide today . Weird .
Usually there would be low tide .
After while , we decided to walk back to the rock that we went to a few weeks ago .
With some other people .
Wanted to see if what i wrote was still there .
But , i was unable to check as the sea was covering it .
Sigh .
We sat there in silence , just appreciating the beauty and serenity of the beach . :)
At about 5:30 , we left the beach .
Walked back to parkway and went our separate ways .

My dad bought for me the Hannah Montana Movie soundtrack .
:D
I was surprised when he called me to tell me he purchased the cd .
Haha .
Okay , anyway .

Time to study for the bio test which i will be having tmr .
Damn .
Cya . :) .

All i ever wanted was a simple way to get over you .
All i ever wanted was you .
Your new beginning was my ending .

2009-03-29T21:49:00.002+08:00

Life on the moon wouldn't feel as far away .
The life that i knew is through .
I need you more than ever .
I'm alone in this crowded room , it feels like life on the moon .

Round and around we go ;

2009-03-29T20:34:00.001+08:00

Your judgement was never my concern .

To get over you ,

2009-03-29T19:32:00.004+08:00

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we've both just moved on.
When people all stare,
I'll pretend that I don't hear them talk.
Whenever I see you,
I'll swallow my pride, and bite my tongue.
Pretend I'm okay with it all,
Act like there's nothing wrong.

Is it over yet?
Can I open my eyes?
Is this as hard as it gets?
Is this what it feels like to really cry?
Cry

If anyone asks,
I'll tell them we just grew apart.
What do I care,
If they believe me or not.
Whenever I feel,
Your memory is breaking my heart.
I'll pretend I'm okay with it all,
Act like there's nothing wrong.

Amazing song . :/

2009-03-29T19:01:00.004+08:00

& please , stop being a hypocrite .

Another thing , please , for fuck sake , don't try to post some really " profound " post .
When your grammar and spelling extremely horrendous.
Go back and improve your english .
Your standard of english is appalling .
Just in case you do not know the meaning of appalling , its definition is , causing dismay or horror .
Remember that , you can use that in your examinations . :) .

No one , but you .

2009-03-29T18:57:00.001+08:00

Boo . :) .
Just finished watching Twlight .
Again . :D .
Twilight is an amazing show .
& the twilight saga is one of the best love stories ever writen .
:) .
Unlike those other feeble attempts by other authors .
Lols .
And pathetic attempts by some couples .
Thinking their love can be some perfect story .
Unfortunately , love can't be perfect .
Those are just fiction .
Perfect love is just as much as a fantasy as vampires are . :) .

Kinda annoyed now , lols . -.- .

I don't understand why some people say , " don't talk 'bout the past , whats done , is done . " The past makes up the present . You can't run away from it . Running away from your past is exactly like running from the mistakes you made in the past . By avoiding it does not help you in the future . You won't be able to learn from it , and you won't be able to make it right . Sooner or later , you'll still have to face them . By running from the past , you're destroying your future . It is true that whats done , is done . But , there is always a way to make things right . No one can change the past , but one can make a better future . Do you want to carry on , living as per normal with that guilt inside of you ? Knowing that you've hurt people , knowing that you've done despicable things , but have been avoiding it . Do you think you'll be able to outrun it ? To escape it ? No matter what you say or do , you can't erase the past . You can't get rid of it , no matter how much you regret it . :) .

Ever heard the saying , " this is history repeating itself " ? Well , those who refuse to accept their mistakes and learn from it , will always allow history to repeat itself . Those who shun advice and care from friends will always make the same mistakes . You're just going to hurt yourself time and time again . Perhaps , no one is going to care anymore . Thus and therefore , i wish you well . :) . Don't lie to yourself . Living in denial isn't going to help your current situation . A person that is unable to face the truth is hopeless . For lying to yourself will only make you more vulnerable to worse mistakes later in life . Some people are totally irredeemable and irrevoable . As they completely refuse to listen .

As hopeless as you are , though . You're still my friend .

Save you ;

2009-03-28T22:54:00.005+08:00

Esplanade ;

From sky terrace

:) .

Peace .

The beach ;

8:30 pm . :) .

7:30 pm . :)

If today was your last day ,

2009-03-28T21:14:00.004+08:00

Yo . :) .
Tiring day today .

Woke up early for speech day .
Such a waste of time .
Go there listen to boring speeches and watch people collect prizes .
Saw some assholes up on stage somemore .
Spoil the whole ceremony , seriously .
Overall , it was uncomfortable (horribly hot) and incredibly dull .

After that , the spectators had to go for Fiesta .
What was the school thinking ?
Having the fiesta at 12 in the afternoon .
It was sweltering hot .
All of us were suffering under the blazing sun .
2007's fiesta was much better .
It was at night .

Anyway , we witnessed Ms Lenny and Ms Faizah getting dunked .
Hilarious . Haha .
We were clapping and cheering like mad . :) .
Hee . :D .

The dance floor was nice .
It was mended by , if i'm not wrong , 3A ?
The effects were marvelous .
The malay boys there were extremely rowdy .
They were chanting gang raps .
Mad .

After that , wandered around aimlessly .
It. Was. So. Fucking. Hot.
Went to music room for like , 5 minutes ?
Then had no where to go , as Vivian had to lock the music room .
Decided to go tech view .
The security guard didn't even care that we were strolling out of the school gates .
Haha .

Went to tech view , bought drink .
Was so damn parched .
Talked and slacked for awhile .
Then went back to school for second attendance .
Actually , didn't have to go back .
Mdm Wong already ticked against our names .
She said she trusted us to not run home .
She's such a wonderful teacher . :) .

Went TM with Rosi and Xinyi .
Had lunch at Pastamania .
Baked rice . :D .
The baked rice from Pastamania is fantastic .
Lols .
Then wandered around TM .
Had nothing much to do .
Eventually , we decided it was time to leave .

Xinyi went to inter-change to catch bus 65 , i assume .
Rosi and I took bus 15 .
We slept in the bus .
I was exhausted .
Didn't sleep much last night .
Got off at parkway , caught bus 36 .
Alighted at Esplanade .
Went to sit near the docks .
Sat there to clear my head and listen to music .
After an hour , i got up , and started exploring the Esplanade .
Went up and down random stairs .
Went to the sky terrace too .
Spent quite some time there .

There were many people at the Esplanade .
Majority were couples .
Every where you turn , you'll be able to see couples embracing .
Yes , its that bad .
Lotsa PDA .
Hahas .

Eventually , became bored .
Called my mom .
My parents and brother were late , again .
Met them at suntec .
Went to New York New York for dinner.
Ate some creamy pasta .
Couldn't finish it .
Too much cream for one day .
:/ .

Went cd shopping . :D .
Actually wanted to buy Kelly Clarkson's latest cd & The Hannah Montana Movie soundtrack .
They didn't have the soundtrack .
Thus , only bought Kelly Clarkson's cd .
But , my dad bought David Cook's cd and Nickelback's cd .
Whoooo . :D
I also wanted those 2 cds .
Was damn lucky . :) .
I will buy the soundtrack tmr , i guess .

Listening to Kelly Clarkson's cd now.
:) .
Its really good .

Yeah yeah Shihyao . I know you told me that over and over again before .
:P .

So live like you never had .

2009-03-28T20:59:00.006+08:00

I made a new tag board . :) .
That one too old alr .
I want the Refresh button .
& , there were too many bullshit in that tag board .
Don't ya agree ? :) .

2009-03-28T00:27:00.004+08:00

And i'm seriously turning off my computer now .
I don't have so much time .
I have better things to do .

Tag as much as you want , if that makes you happy .
It shows alot when you gain pleasure from doing something so childish and profane .

Bye .

♥

2009-03-28T00:18:00.002+08:00

Joel , say whatever you want on your blog .
& excuse me , no one is perfect .
You're not perfect . I'm not perfect .
Get that into your head .

And about that " path " crap .
I don't really care .
Wake up ? Wake up from what ?
From the truth ?
Am i the one living a lie , or are you the one ?

About the IP address thing , you kept saying the spammer's IP address and my IP address is the same .
And now you suddenly change your mind ?
IP address change everyday ?
Please think first .
& , every single IP address change meh ? See your ss properly .

Just so you know , i don't hate or dislike you or whatever you said on your blog .
And lets just hope you wake up too .

Doreen ,
open your eyes . You want ask kimmy, rosi and my other friends if they are my friends ?
Save your childishness for someone who thinks it is cute .
:)

2009-03-27T23:41:00.002+08:00

guest
fuck you sara and your disgusitng friends all let down hair think you pretty is it go homesuck balls la. pot calling the kettle black. stupid fucking dogs calling people dogs fuck off la pcb
27 Mar 09 21:01 220.255.7.187

DOREEN
dun nid msg her. my sms precious. nights.
24 Mar 09 23:02 220.255.7.187

CAN ANOT ?

♥

2009-03-27T22:01:00.002+08:00

Hello ! :D .
Today was a nice and slacky day . :) .

First period english , slacked .
Mdm rogayah was showing power point slides , :) .

Then , bio .
Lols . Slacked somemore .
Was playing with iPhone .
:D .

Then geog . Kinda boring .
:/ .

Recess , didn't want to go down .
But Mrs Yeow made us go down .
Suay .

Then chem .
Slacked !

Then maths .
Slacked .
LOL . Mdm Wong never teach .

NIGHT LESSON WAS CANCELED !

After sch , went ubi .
Then went TM with Rosi .
Went to watch Confessions Of A Shopperholic .
Stupid funny !
Damn nice luh .
Haha .
:)

Then bus-ed back to ubi to pick up skirts .
Then bus-ed to Marine Parade library to meet Kimmy ! :) .
Walked to parkway .
Bought Xinyi's birthday present .
Then went to borders to look at hair magazines .
Lols .
Then went Ajisen Ramen . :D .

Then went ECP !
Damn nice to be at ECP at night . :) .
3 of us lay on the rocks , staring at the stars .
I was in total bliss . :) .
Wish that moment could last forever .
This whole week , we were talking about how if only time could stop .
That is one of the moments i really wished time could stop .
It was so serene . So peaceful .
Wow .
Unbelievable . :) .
I was playing the song , Right Here Right Now .
From HSM 3 .
Me and Rosi were singing it .

Can you imagine , what would happen , if we could have any dream ?
I'd wish this moment was ours to own it , and that it would never leave .
Then i would thank that star , that made our wish come true .
Cause he knows that where you are , is where i should be too .

Right here , right now . I'm looking at you , my heart loves the view .
Cause you mean everything .
Right here , i promise you somehow .
Tomorrow can wait for some other day to be .
But right now there's you and me .

If this was forever , what could be better ?
We've already proved it was .
So let’s make the second last, make it last!

Wonderful song . :) .
Suited our mood .
Friends forever . :) .

Spending time at ecp with the people you love is just so wonderful .
The feeling is inexplainable .
Today , lying under the stars , with the wind blowing through our hair , was one of the best moments in my life .
Laughing and talking without a care in the world .

Of all my memories of secondary school , this is definately one of the best .
:) .

True friends , will be with you forever .
& thats what we are . :D .

:/

2009-03-25T22:20:00.003+08:00

At times like this , everything seems hopeless .
Listening to 987 FM . So that at least i will still smile .
A little .
I hardly reply smses now .
Just don't feel like talking .
Kimmy knows why , and she thought i was retarded .
Lol .
-.- .
Okay , bye .

I wonder if you're happy .
Just glad to see me scarred .

2009-03-25T18:26:00.002+08:00

Ignore the mad spammings .
Ty , :) .

Today was funny . :)
Everyone was like gossiping about that thing .
Damn retarded . Kept laughing and laughing .

Bio was slacky .
Had to get in groups of 4 .
Played with Yu Xiao's iPhone the whole time .
Was typing crap with it . :)
Was ranting . :D .
Actually not ranting luh . Just quoting people .
LOLS .

Then english , 3 period .
No lesson . :)
Mdm Rogayah didn't come .
-.- .
So slacked like mad .
Laughed like mad .
:D .

Then recess , finally went to the canteen after so long .
& still got pissed .
Seriously . Damn fucking annoying la .

Was late for physics .
Sat on th floor .
& physics test got cancelled . :DD !
Speaking of physics .. Have to go study DC Motors later .
Sian . -.0

Maths was .. Normal .
Was damn damn sleepy throughout the lesson .
Went to read my old msges to keep me awake . -.-

Chem was also slacky .
Mdm Haliza has some workshop thing for 3 weeks . :)
Not coming sch for 3 weeks .
Was typing crap on Kimmy's phone .
She thought i was mad . LOL .
I insulted her like mad for fun . :3 .
Was also venting anger . Lols .
Hypocrites are so pathetic , :) .
:D .
So .. Yeah . Slacky lesson . Again .
:/ .

After sch , took bus to parkway .
Went mac .
LOL . Damn xia suay there .
Rosi and Kimmy came my house , while Elonah went home .
Rosi came to take Gossip Girl from me .
Kimmy and i were looking at random people's fs and blogs .

Today was a nice day .
Damn slacky . :) !
Love it .
Haha .

Kayy , bye people . :)

2009-03-23T21:19:00.005+08:00

Write the names of 16 friends you can think in ur mind.And then answer the questions, say you're guessing if you don't know.But at least guess on all of them.After doing this, tag 21 unlucky friends to do the same thing.

1. Xinyi
2. Kimmy
3. Rosiana
4. Evelyn
5. Jeremy
6. ShihYao
7. Isaac
8. HuiJuan
9. Francesca
10. Shermaine
11. WeiBin
12. Jane
13. Kok Peng
14. Damien
15. Germaine
16. Jonathan
17. Gerald
18. YiTing
19. Elonah
20. Desmond
21. Clarence

1. How do i meet 7? (Isaac)
Maple Story . ;3

2. What would u do if u and 15 had never met? (Germaine)
Sad luh ! Duh !

3. What would you do if 20 and 1 dated? (Desmond & Xinyi)
Erm . LOL . I would .. be super fucking shocked ??

4. Have u seen 17 cried? (Gerald)
Uh . Heard before . Don't think seen . Cannot rmb ah !

5. Would 4 & 16 Make a good couple? (Evelyn & Jonathan)
HAHA ! Doubt so ! Eve cant be my daughter-in-law !

6. Do u think 11 is attractive? (Wei Bin)
No idea ?

7. What is 2's Favourite colour? (Kimmy)
Currently ? Either red or yellow . It changes from day to day . Can't keep track . -.-

8. When the last time i talked to 9? (Francesca)
Last night . :X

9. What language does 8 speaks? (HuiJuan)
English and chinese . O:

10. Who is 13 going out with? (Kok Peng)
He's single . I think .

11. Would u ever date with 17? (Gerald )
HAHHA NO TY . -.-

12. Where does 18 live? (Yiting)
UHH ! forgot ! i only know can walk from parkway !

13. What is the best thing about 4? (Evelyn)
My BEST BUDDIE . LOL .

14. What would u like to tell 10 right now? (Shermaine)
Oh , hi twinneh .

15. What's the best thing about 20? (Desmond)
uh . o_o no idea .

16. Have i ever kiss 2?(Kimmy)
I kiss her everyday . :)

17. What is the best memory you have of 5? (Jeremy)
Alot alot . :)

18. When is the next time u will be seeing 4? (Evelyn)
Tomorrow .

19. How is 7 different from 6? (ShihYao & Isaac)
ALOT .

20. Is 2 pretty? (Kimmy)
OF COS . HAHA.

21. What is the first impression of 15? (Germaine)
We were fighting . :X

22. How did you meet 3? (Rosiana)
School ! :D

23. Is 15 one of your best friends? (Germaine)
kinda ?

24. Do u hate 12? (Jane)
nope ! lols .

25. Have u seen 18 in the last month? (Yiting)
saw her today .

26. When was the last time u saw 16? (Jonathan)
December . ._.

27. Have u been to 5's house? (Jeremy)
yup yup . big sia. -.-

28. When's is the next time u will see 10? (Shermaine)
maybe never . LOL .

29. Are u close to 11? (Weibin)
used to be .

30. Have u been to the movie with 4? (Evelyn)
uh ! dun think so . -.-

31. Have u gotten any trouble with 8? (HuiJuan)
nopeee . :X

32. Will u give 19 a hug? (Elonah)
Give before ! Haha .

33. When have u lied to 3? (Rosiana)
no idea . O:

34. Is 11 good in socializing? (WeiBin)
maybe ? haha .

35. Do u have know a secret about 8? (HuiJuan)
yehhh . O:

36. Describle the relationship between 12 & 18? (Jane & Yiting)
Strangers .

37. What's the best thing about ur friendship with 9? (Francesca)
She gives great advice . My darhling jie . :)

38. What's the worst thing about 6? ( ShihYao )
takes a really long time to try on clothes . HAHA . NOOB.

39. Have u ever have a crush with 12? (Jane)
she's my chiobu !

40. How long have u know 2? (Kimmy)
i KNOW her for 4 years .

41. Does 11 Have any boyfriend or girlfriend? (WeiBin)
Not that i know of.

42. Have u ever wanted to punch 1 in the face? (Xinyi)
-cough- maybe . ;3

43. Has 21 meet ur parents (Clarence)
He's my daddie !

44. How did you meet 11? (WeiBin)
Maple Story . :)

45. Did u ever accidently phyciscally hurt 3? (Rosiana)
On purpose la pls ! :D

46. Do u live close to 7? (Isaac)
Quite bah .

47. What's 8 Favourite food? (HuiJuan)
idk . O:

48. What kind of car does 1 have?(Xinyi)
she cant drive -.-

49. Have u travelled anyway with 9? (Francesca)
i wan !

50. If 14 have $100, what would he/she spend it on? (Damien)
uh ! psp stuff or comp stuff . -.-

__________________

Done la erzi . :D

2009-03-23T19:07:00.002+08:00

Hello . :)
Today was retarded . Lols .
Surprisingly , i didn't get screwed for not doing my homework .
Lucky me . :)
Combined english class with 4C today , for the last period .
So fun . :)
Kimmy was like sitting on me for 10mins . -.-
Pain lah !
LOL .

After sch went to tech view cafe .
Then went kimmy's house .
Watched Cyborg She for awhile .
Then stopped .
Then slacked there .
Kimmy was teaching Rosi how to play Bella's Lullaby .
I was lazying around and lying on the sofa playing with kimmy's phone .
And idk what xinyi was doing .
LOL .
;X
Went home at about 5:30 .
Hahas .

Tmr have clb .
Sianed . D:
We're going late .
Eating snow ice before clb , as usual . :)
Hee .

Okay , i'm going to do my maths homework now .
O:
And maybe do geog .
Ewww . -.-
Geog sucks big time .
Fxckzxc .

The other day , Kimmy and i were bitching about some people .
Then she was like , don't worry . She probably will die soon . Cause dogs usually live for about 14-16 human years ?
Haha . Nice one .

Early RIP to you . :D
You're just a fucking pathetic asshole , you know that ? :)

Byeee . :D

♥ Cause i would die for you .

2009-03-22T22:13:00.002+08:00

Drive fast until we crash .
Sweet dreams that won't come true .
Blinded by the lights .

Cause if you jump , i will jump too .
We will fall together from the building's ledge .
Never looking back at what we've done .
We'll say it was love .

♥

2009-03-22T21:26:00.003+08:00

Just now had tuition .
Me and my teacher started talking about Rihanna and Chris Brown .
& we were like talking about how hopeless Rihanna is .
Then my teacher was like , most people will go back to the person that hurt them .
Maybe its true . Lols .
Weird though .
I was like , talking about relationships with her .
Haha . She is so cool .
Best teacher ever . :)

2009-03-22T21:01:00.002+08:00

Feel like i have wasted my holidays man . :/
Haven't studied at all . :O
Everyday only go out .

Monday - TM .
Tuesday - Parkway .
Wednesday - Suntec , Marina Sq , Raffles City , Esplanade .
Thursday - Orchard .
Friday - Bugis & Far East .

Wth man . :/
I needa study alr .
-.-
O levels ..
And i'm going to die tmr .
Never do homework .
GG . -.-
I only did physics and bio .
:X .
Whatever .
>.>

I wanna scream , until no sound comes out .

I wanna swallow these pills .

I need to start to be myself , cause i'm sick of everybody else .

2009-03-22T20:56:00.001+08:00

And finally the silence .
Looking out, looking back across the sky trying to find a meaning .
Knowing that I just left it all behind .
Still I smell a lingering softness .

♥

2009-03-22T18:11:00.000+08:00

Just changed blog skin .
Was bored .
Lols .
Whatever .
:/

2009-03-21T23:29:00.002+08:00

Death is peaceful , easy .
Life is harder .

When my time comes , forget the wrong that i've done .
Help me leave behind some reasons to be missed .
Don't resent me , and when you're feeling empty , keep me in your memory .
Leave out all the rest .

♥

2009-03-21T20:52:00.002+08:00

boring day.
lols .
went parkway for lunch .
bought a necklace from 77 street .
its just 2 rings .
quite nice .
lol .
collected my twilight dvd too .
then went home and watch with my brother .
lols .

i love twilight .
& i love jacob too .
somehow i feel like him .
i can understand how he felt .
:)
especially his hatred for edward .
lols .

then went out with parents for dinner .
lols .
wore totally black today .
has been damn long before i did that .
black shirt , black skinnes , black shoes , black bag , black ring and black bangles .
hoho .
but it was like super hot ?
-.-
xinyi claims i wanna become a bangala .
lols . moron mummy .
:/

nothing to do now .
>.>
i think imma go read Breaking Dawn again .
the part where Jacob narrates .
about all the hatred .

now , i only believe in hatred . :)
love ? its just a waste of time .
-laughs-
hatred wun end up hurting me .
love will . :)

& thanks huijuan for making me feel better . :)
at least , after everything , all the pain , i know i've made a good friend . :)

oh fuck . monday sch start alr .
i seriously have no mood to study .
fuck man . O lvl sucks la .
someone please get rid of cambridge or something .
-.-
ugh .
plus , if i go to sch , may bump into certain people i really dont want to see .

okayy , bye .

2009-03-20T22:36:00.003+08:00

i post , also not post for you to see .
you huan lo ?
mai kpkb please .
thanks .
:)

2009-03-20T22:16:00.002+08:00

you've finally shown your true colours i guess .
i guess i didn't know you that well either .
or maybe i was just lying to myself for your sake .
either way , it was pathetic.
-sarcastic laugh-

2009-03-20T21:43:00.002+08:00

my god , some people are so pathetic . :)
don't know why some people have to be such hypocrites .
even though the evidence is gone , others have seen it before .
don't talk about others when you've done the same .
i don't know if you're ignorant or plain stupid . :)
i think its plain stupid .
stop being so childish and profane .
and for fuck sake , don't even bother trying to improve your english .
it sucks big time .
ask anyone .
i pity you , pathetic little girl .
don't come into my life .
you've done enough damage in others' .

don't try to fight with me again .
you'll only lose .
just like you did , time and time again .
:)
save yourself the trouble , and fuck off .

2009-03-20T21:00:00.004+08:00

and wtf man .
Marcus ( kimmy's friend ) is an exact replica of desmond .
-.-
i was like mumbling to myself , wtfwtfwtf .
lols .
seriously .
exact replica .
whatthehell . :/

when i saw him i was waiting for that wave of sadness .
but it never came .
guess i really have no more feelings for him alr .
lols .
i don't know which is worse .
getting hurt time and time again by the same person .
or getting hurt by someone else .
-.-

I just recovered from one heartbreak .
Now i have to patch my heart back again ?
It has barely been one month since i had to struggle to let go of someone .
Now i have to do it all over again .
Just that this time is harder .
Ah fuck man .
Love is such a waste of time .
If only there is no such thing .
Life would be wonderful .
-.-

2009-03-20T19:59:00.002+08:00

Now the story has played out like this .
Just like a paper-back novel .
Lets rewrite an ending that fits .
Instead of a hollywood horror .

♥

2009-03-20T19:51:00.001+08:00

Still not replying smses .
And not replying most msn convos .
Anything important , call me .
Thanks .
:/

Don't ask why . Just leave me alone for awhile .

♥

2009-03-20T18:51:00.003+08:00

:/
went bugis today with rosi and kimmy .
bought alot of things .
lol .
and all are black and white .
black bag , black wallet , black shades , black shorts , black bangles , white bangles and white shirt .
:/
finally laughed today .
as in REALLY laughed .
especially when we were making fun of some bitch's blog .
like primary school compo la pls .
we were laughing like shit .

me and rosi were like mad people .
stalking kimmy and marcus .
lols .
laughed like fuck also .
it felt good .
:)

who says friends aren't important ?
if you ditch your friends just for a guy , what are you going to do when he ditches you ?
friends are the one that will stand by your through everything .
through all the pain and hurt and frustration .
friends are just as important as guys .
or maybe more important .
they are like rocks that you can count on to cheer you up and comfort you .
they are the one that give you good advice and don't hate you if you don't take it .
friends are the one thing we can't live without .
:)

we're to the point of no return .

and along the way , the only thing we've learnt is how to hurt each other .

i'm looking back and wondering why i took so long to realise that nothing has changed .

and never will .

i wish you well and i'll try to forget all the ways we almost made it .

but never did .

still , i stay in all this pain and nothing's gonna make it go away .

i don't wanna wait another minute .

put me out of this misery .

someone kill me please .

thank you .

2009-03-20T00:38:00.001+08:00

i'm having a really fucking bad headache.
but i cant fucking fall asleep .
-'-.

2009-03-19T23:20:00.001+08:00

i really need to go .
to get away .
away from this place .
from everything .
:/

♥

2009-03-19T23:02:00.002+08:00

ohmygod .
whats wrong with me .
-.-
my parents think i am mad alr .
lol .
i'm blasting music into my ears .
-silly laugh-
i'm so numb now .
i feel like being chuck .
i feel like getting stoned and drunk , then going onto the roof and almost jumping off a building .
-.-
i love chuck bass .
he is my favourite character besides blaire .
-.-
imma go sniff the thinner now .
nights .

this goes to show that you'll never know when everything's about to change .

♥

2009-03-19T22:26:00.003+08:00

as much as i want to say i expected it , i can't .
this has happened way too many times .
but somehow its still kinda surprising .
haha ?
everytime i thought things would turn out differently , it never does .
just like the last few times .
i always thought this time it'd be different .
ah well .
guess its just my wishful thinking .
don't know why i still bother .
or still hope .
maybe i just don't learn from my mistakes .

you told me to forget you and .. find my true love ?
if its hard for you to let go of her , what makes you think it'd be easy for me to let go of you ?
what makes your heart so different from mine ?
mine isn't harder to break .
mine can't let go of people any easier than yours can .
but you'll never understand .

Ah whatever . Nights .

♥

2009-03-19T21:35:00.001+08:00

i wont be replying any smses for awhile .
so please refrain from smsing me .
if there's anything important , just call me .
thanks .
i just want to be alone for now .

2009-03-19T09:57:00.000+08:00

You were talking to her , but messing with me .
It’s finally clear you’re blurring the lines .
Are you disturbed?
Oh, now you care ?
Save it for her .
I’m not gonna hear it .
Don’t waste your breath .
You crashed and you’re on your own tonight .

2009-03-19T09:36:00.002+08:00

Lets make a scene like the movies in our dreams .
Make me scream , take me down , no one's watching .
Close your eyes , play it back and rewind .
So surreal , like the story unfolds on a screen .
Stop stalling , the credits are rolling .
Hold me now , before we run out of time .

Run don't walk, the sky is falling through .
Don't talk, tonight i'm so confused .
I'm lost, i'm lost with you .
I don't care where we are, or where we're heading to .
But i know i'm lost.
I'm lost with you.
For the record, when i'm with you , things are looking better for once .
Everything is brighter than the darkness before you .

The power lights went out and i am all alone .
I don't really care at all , not answering my phone .
All the games you played , the promises you made .
Couldnt' finish what you started .
Only darkness still remains .
Lost , i couldn't see .

Teach me how to steal a heart as fast as you stole mine .
And its like i can't feel a thing without you around .
I can't think of anybody else who i hate to miss as much as i hate missing you .

♥

2009-03-19T09:19:00.003+08:00

:/
i'm tired .
the only thing more painful than knowing the truth is not knowing the truth .

this holiday sucks . :/
i rather go back to sch .
-.-
sian la .
and blogger is annoying me .
for reasons that shall not be mentioned .
-.-

whatever . going to watch Hotel For Dogs later .
how wonderful .
Hotel For *Dogs* :D .
-cough-
i'll be thinking of some other dogs throughout the movie . :]
retards . -.-

You Belong With Me - Taylor Swift .

You're on the phone with your girlfriend
She's upset.
She's going off about something that you said .
Cause she dosent get your humor like I do.
I'm in the room
It's a typical Tuesday night
I'm listening to the kind of music she doesn't like
And she'll never know your story like I do

But she wears short skirts
I wear T-shirts
She's cheer captain
And I'm in the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
And find what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see, you
You belong with me

You belong with me
Walking the streets with you and your worn-out jeans
I can't help thinking this is how it ought to be
Laughing on a park bench, thinking to myself
Hey isn't this easy

And you've got a smile that could light up this whole town
I haven't seen it in a while since she brought you down
You say your fine
I know you better then that
Hey whatcha doing with a girl like that

She wears high heels
I wear sneakers
She's cheer captain and I'm on the bleachers
Dreaming about the day when you wake up
That what you're looking for has been here the whole time

If you could see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along so why can't you see
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time how could you not know
Baby you belong with me

Oh'
I remember you drivin' to my house in the middle of the night
I'm the one who makes you laugh
When you know your about to cry
And I know your favorite songs
And you tell me about your dreams
Think I know where you belong
Think I know it's with me

Can't you see that I'm the one who understands you
Been here all along
So why can't you see
You belong with me

Standing by and waiting at your back door
All this time
How could you not know
Baby you belong with me
You belong with me

You belong with me

Have you ever thought just maybe
You belong with me

You belong with me

lols , taylor swift has nice songs . O:

whateverrrrrrrrrrrr . :/
bye .

I'm not a princess .
This ain't a fairytale .
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet .
Leader of the stairwell .
This aint hollywood .
I was a dreamer before you came and let me down .
Maybe i was naive .

2009-03-18T22:43:00.002+08:00

waaaah .
so tired.
-.-

today went sch .
was like . 15 mins late for bio .
hehe .
strolled in with kimmy . :D
bio was damn slacky .
haha .

then physics .
finished the topic on lenses . :D
finally .
thats like last year's topic la ?
-.-

then rushed home .
changed .
wtf okay .
my WHOLE house was a complete mess .
4 strangers were in my house .
painting the house .
-.-?
then i couldn't go into any of the rooms .
so had to anyhow pick a shirt and shorts from the kitchen .
-.-
just washed only lor .
wth .

then went tanah merah .
met jer .
mrt-ed to city hall .
went fish & co at suntec for lunch .
then walked to marina sq .
met kimmy and her sis .
walked around marina sq .
then 4 of us walked to raffles city .
jer bought a shirt from top man .
then went food court .
buy drink .
then talk talk .
then jer went off first .
me and kimmy and her sis walked around raffles city .

then kimmy and her sis had to go . -.-
then i walked around raffles city for like 5 mins ?
and suddenly forgot how to go citylink .
amnesia . :D
then finally found my way . -.-
walked to esplanade .
slacked awhile there .
haha .
then went .. suntec .
meet parents .

went to some chinese restaurant for dinner .
saw my cousin on a date .
LOL .
he confirm damn paiseh one . ;X
he pretend not to see us lor !
asshole . D:
then went to make spare glasses and collected 3 mths supply of contacts .
:D

then went tpy hub to pick brother up from mindchamps .
-.-
reached home at about 9.45 .

yawn . so tired.
walked so much today .
gah .

the renovations are finishing .
tmr last day i think .
:] .
i love the thinner smell.
seriously .
maybe i can go highhhhh . :D

its like sniffing glue .
but worse . LOL .
funfun .
:3
my whole house has that smell now lor .
idk why my parents and bro hate it so much . -.-
so nice .
O:

bye .

2009-03-17T23:20:00.002+08:00

and to those little dogs that come and read my blog everyday ,
please get over yourself .
i dont really give a shit if any of you suspect that post is about , well , you .

spam all you want .
fuck yourself up on my blog all you want.

this is my blog and i get to scold anyone i please , whenever i please .
not happy, then just don't come here ever again .
you can go think and gossip yourself to death about who that post was about .
or fuck off .
either way you'll never know .

hahaha . suckers .
dogs .
i don't have the time and mood for your barking .
piss off .

goodnight .

2009-03-17T23:09:00.002+08:00

never in my entire 15+ years of life , have i hated someone so much .
i have never felt real hatred before .
thanks , thank you so fucking much for allowing me to feel it .
i have never ever wanted someone to be sad as much as i want you to be .
i have never longed for the misery of someone this much .
till now .
even words cant explain how much i hate you .
i absolutely hate , detest , loathe , despise , dislike , abhor , execrate you .
the mere sight of you makes my blood boil and fist clench .

i'm sorry but the only thing i can hope for you , is misery .
misery , sadness , hopelessness , helplessness , unhappiness , suffering , distress , anguish , anxiety , torment , pain , grief , despair , heartache , dejection , depression , sorrow and many more .
take your pick .
i dont really care .

i'm not usually this heartless .
but you've made me become like this .

i hate you .
from the very bottom of my heart , i hate you .
:]

2009-03-17T22:35:00.002+08:00

I cry myself to sleep . Its my lullaby .
I wanna scream . It makes me feel alive .
Is it enough to love ? Is it enough to breath ?
Rip my heart out and leave it there to bleed .
Is it enough to die ? Somebody save my life .
I'm going crazy but i know you're worth it .
Sometimes i stay up thinking .
Where do i belong forever ?
In whose arms ?
Its the first time i have ever felt this lonely .
I wish someone could cure this pain .
I wish that it would just go away .
All the pain , all the thoughts lead back to you .
Back and forth inside my head .
I can't handle this confusion .
Take me away .
Even if i told you , you wouldn't understand .
No one understands .
When i turn the lights out , when i close my eyes , reality overcomes me .
I'm living a lie .
I know i wanna runaway .
If only i could runaway .

♥

2009-03-17T22:17:00.003+08:00

everything in my house is coated with a wonderful layer of dust .
awesome !
not .
-.-

so damn filthy .
whatthehell man .
:/

I need to escape .

Get out of here tonight .

I need to leave .

Leave this place of heartbreaks and misery .

It can't get any worse than this .

I need to scream and lose control .

I need to forget about you , forget about her , forget about him , forget about them , forget about us .

I need to forget about everything and runaway .

I just want to fall and lose myself .

♥

2009-03-17T21:51:00.002+08:00

Placing too much hope on someone is foolish and stupid .
I guess i have learnt my lesson ?
I'm not sure what is going on but i guess its not going to be something that i would like to know about anyway .
I think its time i stop doing all these crap and let time do the work .

Like i said , patience is not my speciality .
But if its something worth waiting for , then , i guess i can make an exception .

♥

2009-03-17T19:58:00.002+08:00

I see you in my mind playing over and over again .

another moody day . -.-
i wonder how long is this phase going to last .
ugh .
i seriously have no mood for this .
my god . :/

today's lessons were just as boring .
excecpt that , i was damn damn damn sleepy .
-.-
retarded lor .
lols . -.-
i slept for like , 30mins during geog ?
first time i slept in goeg .
then eng .
i wanted to sleep .
but was too annoyed by the teacher .
-.-
she is seriously damn annoying .
some teacher , i think not from my sch de .
wtf man .
kpkb .
ppl drink plain water she also not happy lor .
PLAIN water leh .
-.-

then we were like super noisy during the lesson.
then she not happy . O:
then she was like , who want leave , just leave now .
dont want come here then go la .
blablabla .
then after awhile , me and kimmy just ran out of the class .
laughed like fuck .
lols .
:D

then went to buy milo .
then just walk out of sch .
heck care . -.-
went tech view to wait for evelyn to finish the eng lesson .
then after eating , went eve's house .
slack there for awhile .
drank wine also .
lol .
i love the warm sensation you feel in your throat and chest after drinking alcohol .
so nice . :/
i want more . ~.~

then went tech view again .
to meet xinyi and rosi .
waited for them to eat finish .
then went sch for physics .
i was suddenly damn sleepy .
couldn't even open my eyes lor . -.-
then i close my eyes.
lab always makes me extra sleepy . zz.
then i splash water on my face.
woke me a little.
then started smsing ppl .
to keep me awake .
-.-

after lesson , went parkway with yiting and rosi .
ate snow ice again .
LOL .
:D
after tht went Giant for awhile .
then slacked opp parkway .
then went home .
ha .
:/

nothing to do now . -.-
no mood to do anything also .
whole house a mess .
cause of the bloody renovation .
zzz .
my whole house smells like .. thinner ?
idk whats that smell luh . something like paint .
so nice lor the smell .
people the smell can make someone high .
i wonder if its true .
hope it is .
at least can don't think at all .
:/

moodless manzxcs . -.-
zz .
and the thumbdrive with my gossip girl is in the bloody room ?
i cant even watch .
tmd .

whatever .
bye . -.-

I'll live for all my days to put a smile on your face .

2009-03-16T23:53:00.002+08:00

There's nothing i could ever say .

Nothing i could ever do to make you see what you mean to me .

Damn no mood today . :/

Fuck sia . My house is like . having renovation ?
Then need pack this pack that .
I watching gossip girl then my mom keep ask me things .
I alr damn pek chek .
Then she go poke poke poke me .
I press wrong thing .
The whole fucking episode restart .
Then i was like , what you want la ?
Then my dad kpkb .
Say what , get out of my house now .
I grab my phone and walk .
Then he start shouting again .
Knnccb .
Ask me go out , i want go out still kpkb .
-.-

Then after that he scold scold scold .
Then i just cannot take it anymore .
Seriously la . I control my emotions for like .
How many days alr .
Then i just let go .
Idc . I just down there cry infront of him .
Fuck man . I fucking hate crying infront of people .
Fuckfuckfuckfuck .
-'- .

How many more fucking times do i have to cry .
-types every single curse word i know-
-.-

I know its not good to bottle up your emotions .
But i don't care . I don't want to say stuff that i'll regret .
I don't want to say stuff that'll make other people's life harder .
Fuck . :/
I don't want to keep crying .
I don't want to keep feeling miserable .
I don't even know what is going on now .
-.-

I'm tired .
Tired of pretending .

Goodnight . :/

All the pain , the tears i cry .

♥

2009-03-16T20:37:00.002+08:00

hello . :/
moody now .
just came back from downstairs .
went to walk and think . :/

today had sch .
super boring la k .
can die .
2 more days of lessons .
crap manzxc . :/

had 3 hours break time .
cause i don't have chinese lessons.
went parkway with kimmy .
ate snow ice .
super nice . :]
i want more sia . :/
then went walk walk .
blahs .

then met xinyi and rosi .
at tech view .
lols .
then was about to be late for physics .
retarded .
cause of the RAIN again la .
wthells .
but luckily the guard opened the side gate for us .
-.-
had another boring lesson .
then went TM with damien , kimmy and rosi .
went to buy ring .
walked around while waiting for the carving .
then went home .
:]
fell asleep in the bus .
and no shihyao , i didn't miss my bus stop .
in your face . :D

had nothing to do at home .
still have nothing to do .
i'm getting pissed at really small things now .
and am super paranoid suddenly .
trying to calm down . :/

byeee . :/

Day after day , time pass away and i just can't get you off my mind .

Nobody knows . I hide it inside .

I keep on searching but i can't find the courage to show .

To let you know i've never felt so much love before .

But if i let you go , i will never know what my life would be holding you close to me .

Will i ever see you smiling back at me ?

Night after night i hear myself say , why can't this feeling just fade away ?

There's no one like you .

You speak to my heart .

2009-03-16T00:50:00.003+08:00

iseriouslydontknowwhatisgoingonwithyouwithherwitheveryone.
idontknowwhattodoorthinkanymore.goodnight.

2009-03-16T00:46:00.002+08:00

fuck man .
jus realised firefox can highlight everyth .
and they change the font .

luckily deleted latest post in time .
shit .
use internet explorer la !
-.-

super bad mood now la pls .
-'- ~

2009-03-16T00:29:00.004+08:00

deleted my private blog .
whatever .
i have nothing to say .

2009-03-16T00:20:00.001+08:00

i'mjustsotiredalr.ihavenothingtosay.

2009-03-15T21:24:00.003+08:00

i have no idea how i got into this mess .
someone get me out .
PLEASE .

too much confusion .